Oh what a week.
This week was one of the most stressful times this semester. It culminated Tuesday night, which was characterized by the stress of four midterms and a brutal talk with a lovely girl who is entirely too sweet to hate, no matter how much I want to.
However, this week has been surprisingly good since then. As my shock and blind rage have subsided, I’m left with essentially no feelings at all. My sense of “It was what it was and now it’s over” has returned and it’s good. Honestly, I feel liberated. I’d never been broken up with, and while this doesn’t technically count, I think getting played in such a massive way is comparable.
I relate everything back to lessons I learned growing up, and this is one of them: Whenever something would happen that I didn’t like, from getting hurt to doing chores, Jeff Rettig would say, “It builds character.” I love things I didn’t understand then that make sense now.
I’m building character. I’m seeing things from a very different perspective than I’m used to, and I am embracing it. That doesn’t mean I’m forgiving (yet) but I am being grateful for new experiences. Jeff would love this.